Just when I've decided to shut E out of my life, he comes back again. It's like he can feel that the connection between us will break, that he's going to loose me. Maybe he's more afraid of loosing me than I thought? Maybe he do have stronger feelings for me than he wants to admit, for me and for himself? I don't know.
The one thing that I do know is that he's not going to treat me like he has done, he's not going to use me whenever he wants to. I'm not a toy that you can play with, I do have feelings. I do have a heart, a heart that's stronger than ever and I'm not going to allow one stupid boy to destroy that! I'm done with him, for real, and I do not have any feelings in any way for him. I couldn't feel the butterflies in my stomach like I used to, I didn't feel the electric shots rush through my body. I am finally done with him, forever.