Waking up every morning and realize that everything is still fucking fucked up is awful. Trying to go through the days without crying, or causing a scen, is even worse. Especially when the people who surrounds you are the ones who makes it awful. I'm trying to move on, I'm trying to be a good friend, I'm trying to be okay.
I just want this nightmare to be over. I want everything to go back to normal. Or at least as normal as it can get. I want to go back to my country, to my friends, to my family. I want to be surrounded by people who care about me. I want to feel loved and appreciated.
I'm okay when I'm sleeping. So I should probably go back to sleep and sleep through the day, so I can wake up tomorrow and head for the airport and the plane that will take me away from this place.